Introspective Insights

Introspective - adj: Examining sensory and perceptual experiences. Insight - n: The capacity to discern the true nature of a situation.

Not Doing

All around me I see activity – change, changes, changing…but here I sit in the not doing.

You see, I’m not doing those things that many of you are doing…oh, don’t get me wrong – I’m not here to judge. Those things you are doing are all well and good – for you – but for me, I need to live in the not doing for just a big longer.

I’m not doing resolutions…

I’m not doing un-decorating…

I’m not doing the calendars and lists for the weeks and months ahead…

I’m not doing tomorrow and pondering what it will bring…

I’m not doing that hoping or pining for another day…

I’m not doing the post on that recent tragedy…

You see, if I don’t do those things, I don’t have to move on from the past, the celebrations, the pain, the here and now…and I need to be here, right here, for just a little longer. I need to look at what is in front of me – those sweet little faces, my quiet husband holding my hand, recent laughter with family, today’s date on the calendar, the hands on the clock, the fear that threatens to overshadow me, the pain that I can only handle spoonfuls of at a time. I need to focus on now…just right now and breathe and take it all in.

Tomorrow is practically here and with that I will find my resolve to face these things…

But for now, I’m not doing it. I’m not doing it.

About jenniferpowell@introspectiveinsights.com

Hi! I'm Jennifer. I'm here in my little corner of southeastern Michigan observing relationships, family, and the world hoping to dig deeper and find the divine spark in it all. Thanks for visiting!

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