Introspective Insights

Introspective - adj: Examining sensory and perceptual experiences. Insight - n: The capacity to discern the true nature of a situation.

Diagnosis Day

Last year at this time I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I went through numerous tests, surgery, and radiation therapy. During those days, I wrote constantly. Since then, I’m compiling those journal entries into the beginnings of a book. This post is a continuing series of the book I hope to one day publish. I […]

Dare to Reflect – In Reflection is Life

I write out of my weakness, it defines me, the inability to reflect on life. In that weakness I write to discover the divine thread, the God-leading words, the gratitude for the mundane. When I do not write, I am restless and lost, forgetting what I’ve learned, where I’ve been and from where I have […]

Reflections From the Spray Park

I always struggle at places where tons of moms are because I can’t stand the Pinterest-bragging-cooking-from-scratch-organic-food-designer-kid-bathing-suit-perfectly-coordinated-everything that is here. The talk at times is the worst – I did this, I did that – the constant “one up” banter. Since when did we decide that we were all in a competition? That somehow being better […]

Seeking the Light

I recently wrote a post for my church’s blog. Read the introduction here and click on over to check out the full post. There is a mourning, a fog of sadness that covers me when I take down the Christmas decorations. For five weeks the sparkling silver, red, and green have overtaken our house. Lights […]

Entitlement

You’ve heard it before and maybe even fell victim to the entitlement trap, believing you deserve something when you don’t. Popular thinking states that I was wronged by this person / organization / workplace and therefore I am entitled to apologies / compensation / salary adjustment. While that seems plausible, the world doesn’t work that […]

Fighting The War

Writing for me is mostly cathartic – a way to heal and reflect and move on. But today, I can’t put together any words that resolve my angst, worry or pain. This human condition we face lends itself to negativity and loneliness and aching. And some days, you just can’t put a spin on that. […]

Tense Remorse

I’m trying to capture the tenseness I’ve been living under the last couple of weeks. It all started with a cold and extreme shoulder pain last Thursday. Add that to an over committed week and my attitude and behavior took an enormous drop. My family suffers when I allow myself to get wrapped up in […]

Pain In The Preparation

When I look back over my life, I see valleys and mountains, just like anyone else. And it occurred to me tonight that those valleys of pain were the places where God was working on my heart, preparing me for the next, big step. Of course, when I was wallowing in that low, I couldn’t […]

Growing Old is Relative

The day started normal and routine until I stepped out of the shower and felt the shooting, excruciating pain in my shoulder as I lifted my arm. I tried to turn my head, which elicited the same type of pain. Somehow a horrible knot developed in my back and it wasn’t loosening up. My plans […]

Tempest Peace

A month ago, I was at a retreat up north along the shores of Lake Michigan. The weather was beautiful for this time of year, but the lake behaved as it normally does – surf constantly pounding, whitecaps as far as the eye can see. It was beautiful and wild and the sound of the […]